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another part of my miserable past that is being brought back to life.  i was sleeping at my grandpas house on the couch and i get woken up to someone trying to do me in the butt, no that is not the wording that i wanted to use but its easier for me to say it that way. i didnt know what to do as the person doing this to me was my older brother. i laid there for a few minutes pretending to still be sleeping while he pushed and pushed and i moved just a little and i guess it scared him and he left. i thought that i could go back to sleep and just as i was about to it happens again. i move around just a little more still pretending to be sleeping and he leaves again. this time i get off the couch and lay down on my grandpas floor and think that i would be safe in there and that i could finally go to sleep but i guess that i was wrong. he comes in and lays down behind me and starts rubbing my crotch. i get up and go back out to the couch and not even five minutes later he is back again and this time i tell him that i will wake grandpa and tell him he wouldnt let me sleep. so i finally got to sleep after that but that wasnt the end of it.