i hate storms!!

i thought that if i started a blog it would be pretty cool. you know to have my thoughts and ideas out there for others to read and whatnot. but i have not been up to date on this thing like i thought i would be. i thought it would be a hobby type thing, get me away from facebook.  but i have been neglecting this poor little blog. i dont really see much point in it anymore, i dont think there is much people reading out there any ways. if you are reading this...comment..anything, your name, a goofy sentence a joke or a riddle. haha. i dont even remember my main reason on why i started this thing really. im not getting much out of it as i hoped. i have a journal that i keep on my desktop that i used to write in all the time and i always have things that i want to put in there and release frustrations and i guess its a way to feel relief since i really dont have much people i can talk to. but after awhile i slowed down on that one too. it just seems to be that i never really finish what i start. seems to be true for the most part. right now i am stuck searching for a job and really is in desperate need of one right now!!! i quit my job at meijer, which now i know was a really huge mistake!! i thought it would be simple to get another job. seeing alot of ads online and in the newspaper, and i had 2 years of cashier experience, which is not really much but i thought it would help. i dont think i went through this much trouble when i first started looking for work two years ago. so now, i am farther behind on bills then i ever wanted to be. my bank account is negative 130. holy cow, it sucks!! im most likely will be going to court again for an eviction and this time i wont have the money to stop the eviction and i believe i wont be able to get help from anyone. i think i have borrowed so much money from others and not yet have had the money to pay them back. i would have no place to move to. it is just a really depressing time for me right now and i am really hoping that things will change soon!!